My dad bet my brother that I'd fail out of school The worst part is knowing that it's probably true I can't find myself or what I wanna do I swear to God that I'm trying to What if I can't find a way (I don't think that I'll ever find a way) To manage my time? (I just hope I can make it through the day) Will I fail every class Or bomb my exams? Does that define who I am? I spend my time alone in my dorm Thinking about lecture and all the shit I didn't learn Drinking cheap vodka 'til my face goes numb I can't believe that I've been up this long. What if I can't find a way (I don't think that I'll ever find a way) To manage my time? (I just hope I can make it through the day) Will I fail every class Or bomb my exams? Does that define who I am? And I'll cover it up with drugs and breaking girls hearts cause who gives a fuck if I trick them to bed, with something I said? They deserve to be as unhappy as me. I'm fucking up on everything, I'm starting to get sick I smoke too many cigarettes, I'm failing all my shit I wish I could find something to achieve Anything, but everything is harder than it seems College life ruined all of my dreams Ripped them from my head and tore them from the seams Every step I take is fucking up my life So I'll go and drink myself to sleep tonight.

I won't text you today At least until I start to drink Cause my drunken words have more meaning than you think I like when you get high and when I get drunk Cause we just shut out everyone and making future plans to places we can't afford to go to And I can't stand that fucking kid you like I hate seeing him by your side I'm jealous of someone I shouldn't be But you like him more than me Remember when we took the train up to the city? And spent forty bucks to see Spiderman in 3D? We got lost on 33rd And I couldn't find the words to speak Cause this meant everything to me I'm not even sure if I like you I might just be confused Cause being friends for years Makes it so hard to choose And I can't stand that fucking kid you like I hate seeing him by your side I'm jealous of someone I shouldn't be But you like him more than me Remember when we took the train up to the city? And spent forty bucks to see Spiderman in 3D? We got lost on 33rd And I couldn't find the words to speak Cause this meant everything to me Remember when we took the train up to New York City? And I got lost in Penn Station? You had to come and find me I'd been anticipating this for weeks Cause I don't know how I feel about you And then I saw you Then I saw you walking towards me in your Red Floral Dress and I knew that I'm falling for you. I won't text you today At least until I start to drink Cause my drunken words have more meaning than you think And I'm pretty sure I love you But I'm never going to tell you Cause my feelings have changed And yours have stayed the same

I think I'm really starting to like you I didn't think that it would happen so soon Your quirky sense of humor is just so adorable Your laugh brightens up the room Five classes with you is just not enough It just makes me so sad knowing you're leaving for college in five months I just wanted to get to know you better But I'm just scared of things not working out, or worse Things becoming perfect Everyone tells me to give up And maybe I should Cause you're moving away to a different state And I just know that I will be okay And I want you to know I'll be here for winter break. Everyone tells me to give up And maybe I should Cause you're moving away to a different state

I hope this is the song that you always sing along to that kinda song that gets stuck up inside in your head And I'm trying not to break down while thinking of things to say My anxiety is getting to me And I've been waiting a long time in this hellhole I call home With the A/C on too high, I'm freezing my balls off And I talked to you for just a few minutes Thought that it would be nice But when the conversation ended I've never felt so alone And I know I whine when I sing And I know I do shit a little bit differently Cause I've been taking longer showers Taking the long way home Reading when I usually don't read and I love to walk alone I've been missing out on things Cause I've been missing you You moved on so why can't I? I'm just not good at this shit.

Do you ever get that feeling of claustraphobia up in your head? When there's too much to be said I thought I knew the perfect words to say to you But I guess that I was wrong So when you're gone, don't let me think that it was my fault We're alright now, but who can tell where will be a year from now? A simple lie, an accident, a fuck up. I think that I could ruin it all. So when you're gone, don't let me think that it was my fault It was never my fault So when you're gone, don't let me think that I did something wrong.

She goes to bed sad enough He stays up late just down on his luck She watches Sleepless in Seattle more than once He watches the game even though he hates sports She walks to class, head down low He sits in class propped up by his elbow She stands in the rain, locked her keys in the car He stays after late cause he's failing so far. If I told you everything was okay would you still believe me? If I told you everything was okay would you be on your way Back home so I could be alone for a couple of hours? I think that's all we need, just a couple of hours. She works late for less than minimum wage He smokes a pack almost every other day She falls asleep as soon as she gets home He sits in a park on a bench, all alone She freaks out about her weight He freaks out cause his girl's on a date And they're all alone. If I told you everything was okay would you still believe me? If I told you everything was okay would you be on your way Back home so I could be alone for a couple of hours? I think that's all we need, just a couple of hours. But in the end, she's okay, and he's alright. They'll never feel great, but that's just life. But in the end, she's okay, and he's alright. If I told you everything was okay would you still believe me? If I told you everything was okay would you be on your way Back home so I could be alone for a couple of hours? I think that's all we need, just a couple of hours. If I told you everything was okay would you still believe me? If I told you everything was okay would you be on your way Back home so I could be alone for a couple of hours? I think that's all we need, just a couple of hours.

I've been thinKing that my past days Have been spent on whining About things that I am oveR but I can't help thInking that, I can't help it Where did you go when I needed you most? What happened to the way thingS were? You called and you Told me You said, I wAsn't there. You called and you told me You said, "It wasn't fair." I knew that it would happen one day. Bitch. Where did you go when I needed you most? What happened to the way things were? You called and you told me You said, I wasn't there. You called and you told me You said, "It wasn't fair."

There comes a time when you realize that everything is fine It's taken me hours in my bed to realize that I find myself dreading mornings Cause sleep's the only peace I get I'm not saying I don't wanna wake up But I wouldn't mind a few hours of rest So won't you tell me everything that was wrong? So won't you tell me everything was wrong all along? I was losing sleep over you. I was losing sleep, now I'm over you. And I get out of bed feeling a bit lightheaded But the good kind, like a weight off my shoulders And I've finally decided that I feel better A little bit older. So won't you tell me everything that was wrong? So won't you tell me everything was wrong all along? I was losing sleep over you. I was losing sleep, now I'm over you. So won't you tell me everything that was wrong? So won't you tell me everything was wrong all along? I was losing sleep over you. I was losing sleep, now I'm over you.

I'm writing shit at seventeen that I think is so poetic But you probably think that it's so naive We're all abusing alcohol and sleep Well I've been thinking, thinking a lot lately That all of this change is getting to me I spent the summer feeling so, so let down While everyone else's feet barely touched the ground And I've been feeling sorry for myself And my best friends, they've probably had enough by now I've also had enough, I've got to get over myself I'm sorry for being so annoying I'm also so sorry for all the apologizing I'm just seventeen, upset over nothing.

The summer started off worse than we thought We got Jordan getting sued, and relationships burning to the ground But keep your head up kid We're sinking faster than a sunken ship So keep faith in what you're doing It won't be long until you're 22 And start losing hope in everything So don't let me down I won't let you down. Don't let me down. You're a piece of work I hope you know that But I don't want to lose you And I keep worrying about everything Remember what Michelle was saying? So keep faith in what you're doing It won't be long until you're 22 And start losing hope in everything So don't let me down I won't let you down. Don't let me down. Keep faith in what you're doing It won't be long until you're 22 And start losing hope in everything So don't let me down I won't let you down. Don't let me down.

Last time I was in New York, I fell in love With everything you said Now I'm on the train again, spending forty bucks again With my four best friends I felt the weight of the world slip With everything we said, and everything we did. I felt the weight of the world slip With everything we said, and everything we did. Chainsmoking cigarettes and walking to the subway station Almost got on the wrong train home I wasn't paying attention No matter where we go, no matter what we do Everything revolves around you. I felt the weight of the world slip With everything we said, and everything we did. I felt the weight of the world slip With everything we said, and everything we did. We spent the train ride home laughing about how the last eight months had been rough on us. We spent the train ride home laughing about how the last eight months had been rough on us. And tomorrow we'll stay asleep and lay in bed all day. We spent the train ride home laughing.